Friday, September 22

Hello friends.


This is possibly the longest I've gone without blogging since starting in 2008. I wish I had good news to share, but the fact is these past weeks have been rough. Where do I start?! First, the meds I had been taking to treat my condition seemed to make it worse. I felt like I was becoming weaker day by day, hence no energy to blog. Finally, one morning when the pain was really bad I decided - enough. I made an appointment to ask my doctor to take me off the meds. He certainly wasn't happy, but I didn't care. The thing is with this type of medication I can't just simply stop taking them. They need to be reduced slowly, so as not to have an adverse effect on the heart. I did actually have some complications which made all the more exhausting. While all of this was going on I  handled my business as best I could (sometimes I really wish I had a helper). Also, it seems my shop on Etsy has finally run its course with little to no views, and since I am selling my handmade items on my own website and Instagram I will probably close my Etsy shop by the end of this month. For anyone interested - all of my handmade items will be available through Duni's Studio online shop and I will be uploading more items bit by bit. Unfortunately, I'm not the only one who's been ill. My husband developed pneumonia and had to be hospitalized. He's home now but on bed rest until fully recovered. And then there's Sammy. A few months back I had discovered a small lump on his hip. A biopsy was done and the vet said it was benign. After a couple of weeks I noticed it had grown! So I took Sammy to another vet who told me the lump needed to be operated. Turns out it was malignant. I was devastated by this news and am heartbroken as I write this. While the operation went well, the healing of the wound took ages. The scar is about four inches long and Sammy kept ripping off the dressing, which I had to change several times. It was a stressful week. The awful reality is that the tumor may have spread already. We discussed the option of having a CT scan done, but then decided against it. Knowing doesn't make it any easier or better. Besides, now that the pain from the wound has subsided Sammy seems his normal happy self. We'll monitor him closely and if he shows any signs of pain or acts weird it's back to the vet. I'm praying hard for many more months of cuddle time with Sammy. Meanwhile I have been seeing a great naturopath who has prescribed a combination of natural remedies and also gave me some clarity about how past trauma can manifest in physical illness. He also recommended lifestyle changes which we will be discussing at my next appointment. Incredibly, after a week of following this prescription the pain in my body has lessened! Otherwise I wouldn't be sitting here typing this, trust me. I'm not out of the woods yet, but this gives me hope you guys. After months of pain I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know this wasn't the kind of post you expected, so thank you for reading along. But that's what life is all about. There's ups and downs, good times and bad. Just keeping it real! 


Nach einer sehr langen Auszeit vom Bloggen melde ich mich heute zurück. Ich wünschte ich hätte  gute Neuigkeiten; Tatsache ist, dass es mir in den vergangenen Wochen ziemlich schlecht gegangen ist. Wo soll ich anfangen?! Die starken Medikamente haben paradoxerweise meinen Zustand verschlimmert! Ich fühlte mich von Tag zu Tag schwächer. Letztendlich entschied ich mich die Medikamente abzusetzen und nach Alternativen, sprich Heilpraktiker, Schmerztherapeut etc. zu suchen. Das der Arzt mit meiner Entscheidung nicht glücklich war muss ich ja nicht erwähnen ;-) Das Absetzen der Medikamente musste langsam erfolgen, ansonsten würde das Herz zu sehr belastet (das habe ich gemerkt!). Währenddessen habe ich mich so gut es ging ums Geschäft gekümmert. Apropos Geschäft. Nach langer Überlegung habe ich entschieden meinen Shop bei Etsy zum Ende des Monats zu schließen. Meine handgefertigten Sachen gibt es ab sofort im Duni's Studio Webshop oder via Instagram. Die restlichen Artikel werde ich nach und nach einstellen. So spare ich Gebühren und behalte die Übersicht. Leider bin ich  hier nicht die Einzige die krank ist. Auch meinen Mann hat es schlimm erwischt. Er ist nun zuhause aber immer noch krankgeschrieben. Und dann wäre da noch Kater Sammy. Vor ein paar Monaten hatte ich bei ihm einen kleinen Knubbel entdeckt. Es wurde eine Biopsie gemacht und der Tierarzt sagte, kein Grund zur Sorge, es sei gutartig. Nach ein paar Wochen jedoch bemerkte ich, dass der Knubbel größer geworden ist. Das hat mich stutzig gemacht. Nach Besprechung mit einem anderen Tierarzt wurde der Knubbel rausoperiert - nicht so einfach bei einem 16 J. alten Kater - und ins Labor eingeschickt. Dann die traurige Nachricht, dass er doch bösartig war. Das Schlimme: der Tumor hat eventuell schon gestreut. Ich bin unendlich traurig. Der Tierarzt meint es gibt die Möglichkeit ein CT durchführen zu lassen, aber wir haben uns dagegen entschieden. Was nützt es uns zu wissen, dass der Tumor sich verbreitet hat? Das macht es ja auch nicht besser. Die lange Narbe ist inzwischen recht gut verheilt und allem Anschein nach hat Sammy keine Schmerzen und benimmt sich auch so wie immer. Wir lassen ihn sein Katzenleben ausleben bis es halt nicht mehr geht. Dabei beobachten wir ihn natürlich genau. Ich wünsche und hoffe, dass wir noch eine lange gemeinsame Zeit mit Sammy haben. Wie oben schon angesprochen habe ich in der Zwischenzeit einen sehr guten Heilpraktiker gefunden. Er hat mir eine Kombination von natürlichen Heilmitteln verschrieben. Es ist schon fast unheimlich, aber schon nach sieben Tagen haben sich meine Schmerzen verringert. Nachdem ich nun schon Monate gelitten habe ist das ein riesen Erfolgserlebnis, das könnt ihr mir glauben. Noch bin ich nicht aus dem Schneider, aber es gibt mir Hoffnung, dass es endlich bergauf geht. Ich bedanke mich bei allen Lesern, die es bis hierhin geschafft haben, gerade weil der Inhalt von diesem Blogpost unüblich ist. Aber so ist nun mal das reale Leben. Es gibt Höhen und Tiefen. Ich wünsche euch einen schönen Freitag und ein wundervolles Wochenende!




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27 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry you have had to go through all of this! I hope things turn around for you and you are back feeling better sooner than later. And of course, I am sending lots of purrs to Sammy.

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  2. I'm sorry to hear you are facing some difficult times, but happy to hear that both you and Sammy are doing better. I hope all of you will be fully recovered soon. Thanks for putting up such an honest post. Hope the responds on your blog will help a bit to make you feel better.
    I have been contemplating what to do with my Etsy shop too, things aren't as good as they used to be, sales wise, but the sense of community seems to be gone too. One of the things that made me like Etsy!

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  3. Oh, das hört sich aber gar nicht gut an. Ich wünsche dir weiterhin gute Besserung.
    Herzlichst Ulla

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  4. Sorry to hear what a rough time you've been having. It was a nice surprise to see a post from you again today. Sending lots of prayers and hugs for you, your husband and Sammy

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  5. Liebe Duni,
    ich wünsche in erster Linie Dir persönlich gute Besserung, aber natürlich auch Deinem Mann und Sammy. Ich hänge auch sehr an meiner Katze und kann Dir das nachfühlen.
    Ich wünsche Dir vor allem weiterhin schnelle und gute Fortschritte Deiner Heilung.
    Viele liebe Grüße, Synnöve

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  6. Oh, Duni! I am so sorry that all of this is happening! I am sending love and prayers that you are all feeling better soon. This is just a LOT to handle!

    Hey, I am working part time from home now...is there anything I can do to help you and your business from here? Please let me know what you need and if there is anything I can do from wayyyy over here. I am here to help you, friend!

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    1. Dear Lin, that is so incredibly kind of you! Thank you so much for offering. I appreciate it so much. Right now it's more the handling of orders that I need help with. Amazing how much heavier a bolt of fabric weighs when you're not feeling well... Thank you and hugs.

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  7. Oh my goodness! You've had more than your share of difficulties to deal with lately! I'm sorry to hear you had been so ill but am glad you're feeling better. Prayers that you continue to get better and stronger every day. Glad your husband has recovered too. As for Sammy, thank Cod you took him to another vet! Poor boy sure went through a lot but hopefully the cancer didn't spread. Angel and Isabella are sending him lots of purrs and prayers! Give him a kiss on his handsome forehead for me. Hugs to you.

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  8. Oh Duni. I wish you had your health back. I am glad to hear a naturopath is helping you. Sometimes I wonder if medications worsen symptoms. The mind and body relationship is fascinating. I wish your husband and Sammy well too. Sending hugs and well wishes your way.

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  9. So sorry to hear of your trials! I hope it's all over soon, that everybody is better and that you can get back to the sweeter side of life.

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  10. Meine liebe Duni,
    es tut mir so unendlich leid, dass es Dir und Deinen Lieben gesundheitlich so schlecht geht! Aber ich freue mich so, dass die homöothatischen Medikamente helfen und Dir etwas Erleichterung verschaffen. Ich sende Dir ganz liebe Grüße und gute Gedanken!
    Alles Liebe, Deine Verena

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  11. I feel for you, Duni. I'm sorry to hear you're going through all these, but I pray things get better soon. Sending love and light from Manila!

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    1. Thank you Krissy, so sweet of you! Appreciate it so much <3

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  12. Meine liebste Duni,
    schön, daß Du wieder da bist, aber auch traurig, daß es Dir und Deinem Mann noch nciht wirklich wieder gut geht! MAnches braucht eben ganz viel Zeit und Geduld im Leben, und das wünsche ich Euch von Herzen, in der Hoffnung, daß es nun, wenn auch langsam, wieder bergauf geht! Es freut mich auf jeden Fall sehr, daß Du einen Heilpraktiker gefunden hast und diese Mekdikamente Dir gut tun! Das mit Sammy tut mir auch so leid, und da wünsche ich Euch ebenso von ganzem Herzen, daß ihr noch eine wunderschöne Zeit gemeinsam haben dürft!
    Ich denk an Dich, sei lieb gedrückt, und weiterhin alles Liebe und Gute Besserung weiterhin!
    ♥ Allerliebste Grüße,Claudia ♥
    P.S. Daß Du den Etsy-Shop aufgibts, kann ich gut nachvollziehen, so hast Du es doch ein bischen leichter und kannst Dich mehr um Sammy und Eure GEsundheit kümmern.

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  13. Thank you everyone for your incredibly kind comments. I appreciate every single one of you! Thank you!!

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  14. I'm so sorry to hear that you've been having such a tough time. I'm praying that things get much better soon. Hugs to you!

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  15. Oh, no! I'm so sorry things have been difficult for you lately. Sometimes it really does feel like "when it rains, it pours." I'm glad you're starting to feel better and I hope the improvement continues! Like you and Sammy, I recently changed healthcare providers and am glad I did. Sending positive vibes your way!

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  16. Oh Duni, I am so sorry to hear all of this. I was wondering about you and hoping things were okay. I will be sending lots of love and positive energy across the ocean to you. Please keep us updated. xoxo

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  17. Hi! Great post and I love your photos!
    Can you follow me? I follow you. ;)

    Have a lovely day!
    Tsukiakari from murasakiiroanu.blogspot.com

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  18. Meine liebe Duni,
    ich hatte mir wirklich schon Sorgen gemacht!
    Eine gute Genesung wünsche ich Dir!
    Alles, alles Gute
    ANi

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  19. so sorry to hear this news Duni! I hope that you are feeling better soon! and that you're husband has recovered as I know it takes quite sometime to get over pneumonia! and poor Sammy I hope he is feeling better as well, and that you get good news from the vet. give him lots of cuddles

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  20. I do wish I could take all your pain away. It is difficult to deal with other situations (your husband's illness; then worrying about Sammy - is he in pain or is he getting worse?) when you are not feeling well yourself. All these things can only exasperate your own pain. I know what it is like having a pet who is so sick and they really can't tell you exactly how they feel, you just have to wait and watch his behavior. Unfortunately all I can offer is prayers, sometimes they are the best healers. I understand your desire to get off all your meds, last year I had run out of one of my pain meds (Vicodin) so thought after 12 years I would just stop taking it. That was the worst decision I could have made - by 8 days I was a complete zombie and couldn't function. That is just one of a few heavy meds I take - my boys want me to get medical marijuana - is it available where you are? Something I may try next as I can't imagine how much damage all those meds are doing to our systems. I don't know what your diagnosis is but sounds something similar to what I have been suffering with for almost 14 years now. Good days, great days, and days I am in terrible pain, or have no energy to accomplish anything. I guess we just take what life offers us.

    As for Etsy, sorry you will be closing your Shop, but you are not alone - I know of so many that are either opening their own Shops, or going to other sites such as Artfire, Indiemade, etc. All on Etsy are suffering from poor Sales, low views (nor did it help when they switched -once again - their setups) and we all lost the many views we already had. Basically I feel Etsy gave up on its Seller's about 2 years ago. So many that have left or are leaving - have hurt Etsy - they have all new admin - who don't have a clue about the Seller's and any strategies for helping us market our items. Then when they started pushing manufactured goods instead of "homemade" - that was the end of the "everyday crafter" The proof is that Etsy has fired many of its own workers.
    You all might find this article about Etsy very interesting: https://www.wired.com/2015/02/etsy-not-good-for-crafters/

    Please let us know what your new sites will be - will you be staying with the BBA - I do hope so. Sending hugs and prayers - and anything else I could do to help.

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    1. Dear Pam,
      I'm so sorry you're on heavy meds also. Is there a way you can reduce them maybe? This is what I am trying to do, reduce and replace with natural remedies / alternatives. Yes, you are right, some days are better than others. It's when I try to craft stuff. Thank you for your kind words. They mean a LOT! Thank you also for the Etsy link. Will check out that article.

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  21. Duni, I hope you, your hubby and Sammy are all on the mend by now! Seems when it rains, it pours!! I have several friends who have taken to more naturopathic options when it comes to medical care. I hope yours continues to go well. Thinking of you, my friend ♥

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  22. Sorry to hear all the bad news Sammy. Loss of a pet is so devastating and then you and your husband being ill, so many hits! Glad you're feeling better and how your area of the World treats naturopathy seriously. In American as a whole we pop pills and don't address the underlying issues, I know from being trained in it and helping others than addressing things holistically really does work if you give it time. Hope you guys keep improving! Sending your reiki healing and other prayers/good vibes :)

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    1. Thank you Vanessa. I'm praying the natural remedies will work, but I have to be patient...

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  23. So sorry about all the bad news. Hugs.

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